Yesterday was not my usual friday. Halos every friday, I go out with my friends…gimick and inom to death, yung tipong parang wala ng tomorrow..But this time, I went out sa office early…I wanted to be alone… I need to breath pero ayoko ding umuwi ng maaga, so I decided to watch a movie alone…I watched the movie “Invisible”. naka-relate ako sa movie, because once in my life I was invisble. I was able to write this already sa ibang blog sites ko…but I’ll write it again.
Invisible ako nung high-school ako…that’s why I never really liked high-school…I was always behind the shadow ng super genius kong brother…we went to the same highschool. One year lang pagitan namin ng brother ko that’s why lahat ng naging teachers nyaeh naging teachers ko…bad trip di ba…My brother is very intelligent lalo na sa Math and Science…He’s the school’s math and science whizard which happen to be the subject I was not really very good…People always compare me with my brother…my teachers would always ask me “are you sure you’re the brother of so and so” or “Bakit di ka magpa-tutor sa brother mo” or worst “Ikaw ang latak ng kapatid mo”…Its also has to be noted that my brother is really good looking. lahat yata ng girls nung high school kami may crush sa kanya..even my classmates. He’s always the center of attention… and my brother loved it, kahit di nya alam it was eating me up…ng buong-buo. Pag magkasabay kami maglakad parati sya ang nakikita…never akong nakita.Mahirap pala magkaron ng kapatid na sa kanya umiikot ang mundo ng mga tao…he deprived me of the attention I needed para maramdaman ko that I am alive… that i exist, pero hindi naman nya alam what’s going on with me…I remember nung first day ko sa high school..I was so scared but he was there to tell me that he will take care of me, he even told me “ako bahal sa yo”, but things changed when he became famous…hindi nya naramdaman that I am starting to feel so insecure and worthless because people made me feel that way and that his ibeing insensitive to what’s going on with me is adding up to it…But it made me a strong person. that made me become the person I am right now…Strong..independent…unafraid of anything……
